The Un-Styled Shoot

When my business coach told me that I should start doing weekly personal projects (which I have dubbed The Styled Series), my first response was, But I'm afraid I'm going to fail. Meaning, what happens if I take crappy pictures and my idea just doesn't turn out? 

I think she assured me that I wouldn't. But four weeks into the adventure, I did.

I don't like admitting this. It's really uncomfortable to share this with the world. I usually try to see the silver lining, and salvage what I can, but there were hardly any salvageable images…really only a story. It sucks when you plan something, put in time and effort, and for a variety of reasons, it just doesn't work out. You feel like you wasted time and resources, you feel like you're not good enough, and disappointment sets in.

So here's the story: one of my project ideas was to do a shoot with colored gulal (aka holi) powder, but when I started researching it, buying the stuff seemed to be unrealistic in terms of time, money, and intention. Most of it comes from India, so it takes several weeks to arrive and is therefore expensive, on top of generally being bad for your skin because of the chemicals in the pigments. Being no stranger to DIY, I decided to make colored powder myself using cornstarch, water, and food coloring…and every cooking tray in our kitchen, much to Ben's delight. After mixing five different colors, I set them out to dry in the sun for a week. Except that it wasn't very sunny, and in fact, it rained several days and was very humid. But it seemed that the water had evaporated enough because the colored cornstarch was powdery enough, so I packed it up and took it to Georgetown for a photo shoot with a very wonderful, kind and accommodating friend who was super excited to play around with it and get messy.

But upon throwing it into the air, it became very obvious that it wasn't going to work. The beauty of gulal powder is how it spreads through the air and leaves a colored plume behind for a few moments before fading into the atmosphere. My homemade version just clumped and fell fast to the earth, barely leaving a trace of color. We tried a couple of times, but ultimately decided that it was still too wet and was not going to give the gorgeous intended colored effect. So we played around a little more, but I went home with nothing to work with.

On my way home through Friday afternoon DC traffic, I called Ben, dejected. I had spent a whole day executing this shoot - no really, a whole week, planning and working on putting this shoot together - and it turned out nothing. I really and truly felt like the worst photographer ever. Because I have always prided myself on being able to make something good out of almost any situation, I questioned whether I had given up too soon and what the heck I was going to use for this week's styled shoot. But this is why my husband is awesome: he said that even though it hadn't worked, he was still really proud of me. That right there was enough to start the waterworks, and yet he went on. He said he wished that he had the determination to take on personal projects and pour himself into something and make it happen - but it takes a lot of effort, so he usually just stops at the idea. And even if it didn't work out, at least I was still doing something and following my dream. 

I swear, this is why I married him. Sometimes, he just knows exactly what to say.

I recently heard somewhere (and I wish I could remember where) that when we are faced with a task that is outside our comfort zone, we usually ask What happens if I fail?  and we think about the possibilities and we scare ourselves out of doing it. But the real question we should be asking is What's worth doing even if I fail? In my heart, I know that although they take thought and effort to put together and come with the risk of not working out, my personal projects are helping me grow into a better photographer. And if my pride is really the only casualty of a failed shoot, then I'm still getting more out of the experience than sitting on my bum waiting for fate to turn me into the next big thing.

I love, love, love the idea behind this shoot, so I'm not throwing in the towel on the idea just yet. It's just taking a little longer to complete than I originally intended. As I was telling a friend about the powder, she suggested putting it in the oven to remove the moisture (an idea that had occurred to me earlier, except that I hadn't come up with a better drying mechanism than a hair dryer, which for obvious reasons was not going to work. I'm always seeing zebras instead of horses), which worked brilliantly. And I also decided to be extra prepared for the next time I try and saved a whole bunch of powder from our day at the Color Run - which I am positive will do exactly what I have in mind. 

So I am sorry to disappoint anyone who was excited about seeing a styled shoot today, but in the long run, I probably learned just as much from this one-that-got-away as I have from any of the others that worked out. And be on the lookout for attempt number two, which, with any luck, will be brilliant.

DIY: Paint Chip Jewelry

I haven't seen the sun since Wednesday, and the next two days aren't looking good either. So I brought some bright color into my wardrobe by making a pair of fun earrings from paint samples I picked up at the local hardware store. If this doesn't kick my winter blues, I'm giving up and moving to a tropical island.

Supplies:

• At least two colors of paint swatches, depending on how many colors you want in your jewelry
• Scissors
• Needle-nose pliers x2
• Wire earring hooks
• Round jewelry connectors (I used the small // 25mm // size)
• A ruler + pencil for drawing straight lined shapes
• A needle or other sharp object

Steps:

1. Pick your color palette and decide what shape you want in your jewelry. I'm in love with the triangle trend that is everywhere right now, so I went with that. For my first pair, I kept it simple and just drew a small triangle and a long, large triangle on the back of the paint samples with my pencil and ruler.
2. Cut out your shapes. Use a needle or other sharp object to poke holes where the pieces will be connected.
3. Separate the 25mm rings with the two pairs of pliers (hold the ring on each side with a pair of pliers and twist one side left and one side right - it will make it easier to put the ring back into a circle later).
4. Insert the opened rings into the holes in the paint swatch pieces. In order to make the shapes all face the same direction, use either one loop to connect each piece or any other odd number of rings.
5. Attach a ring to the top paint swatch shape and use it to fasten the pieces to an earring wire.
6. Make a statement. Wear your new accessories in style!

Go out this weekend and do something fun :0). Or get a head start on making your Valentines...and be sure to share the love!

Annapolis in the Fall

I took a lot of pictures of Annapolis in the spring. And summer.

And then I saw the sun setting outside of my window yesterday and it hit me like a load of...well, falling leaves (oh, bad, bad joke), that I had no pictures of my favorite place in the fall. I've been admiring the colors for weeks and didn't have any way to prove how awesome they've been. So I grabbed my camera and ran outside to catch the last of the sunset and the vibrant colors, afraid they wouldn't be around much longer.

I didn't know what I was looking for exactly, but just captured anything within a five minute walk that got my attention. Most of the time it was color. And I have to admit, there were times I was inspired by this guy who is way better at capturing nature in a compelling way than I am.

Get ready to see a lot of leaves...because what else screams fall?

And...I am thankful that I live in a place with four seasons. I probably won't be saying that when I have cabin fever, or my car runs off the side of the road, or I slip and fall on an ungodly small patch of ice, or we lose power again for a week as a result of some huge snowstorm we're supposed to have this coming winter. But the changing climate, temperature, and weather always gives me something to look forward to, and a change of scenery, something to photograph.

Have a great weekend!

Happy Accident

It may not make much sense, but I love the ambiguity. And the colors.

Happy weekend!